i honestly think mr. hyde cares less about past relationships, and more about just trying to stir shit up…opening old wounds…as a form of emotional excitement, as opposed to seeing the world or taking a chance on something good…

well, hopefully mr. hyde doesn’t stir up shit with everyone from the past just for shits and giggles
cause that could turn into something bad

when i am jekyll, i appreciate the fact that i don’t talk to shitty people anymore…i appreciate my life has no drama…at the same time…i think i am subconsciously disappointed that there is no crazy shit going on…and that my focus is entirely on something i think of as mundane…and that i can’t relate to anyone, because they are in the same hole and not complaining…

yeah
i know what you mean

i have no inclination to see the world…and all the chances i could take present themselves daily in the form of asking someone out, or getting drunk with a newbie at work, or just quitting and being totally free, for at least a small amount of time until guilt kicked in…i dunno…i need a change, but i don’t know what i’m waiting for…cancer?

you shouldn’t wait
that’s stupid
you have the means
you should just do something
something different
travel or whatever
or don’t
it’s not such a big decision
you shouldn’t think of it that way

it’s not…it’s just making it…

yeah
but you just need to do it
but don’t expect it to change everything

what will satisfy me?

you have a slight problem with that
don’t expect it to change your entire life and outlook
don’t put all your eggs in one basket, so to speak